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I am now, probably for the
first time in my life, the person I always
wanted to be. Oh, not my body! I
sometimes despair over my body, the wrinkles,
the baggy eyes, and the sagging butt. And
often I am taken aback by that old person that
lives in my mirror (who looks like my mother!),
but I don't agonize over those things for long.
I would never trade my amazing
friends, my wonderful life, my loving family for
less gray hair of a flatter belly. As I've
aged, I've become more kind to myself, and less
critical of myself. I've become my own
friend.
I don't chide myself for
eating that extra cookie, or for not making my
bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that
I didn't need, but looks so avante garde on my
patio. I am entitled to a treat, to be
messy, to be extravagant.

I have seen too many dear
friends leave this world too soon; before they
understood the great freedom that comes with
aging.
Whose business is it if I
choose to read or play on the computer until 4
AM and sleep until noon?
I will dance with myself to
those wonderful tunes of the 60's and 70's, and
if I, at the same time, wish to weep over a lost
love...I will.
I will walk the beach in a
swim suit that is stretched over a bulging body,
and will dive into the waves with abandon if I
choose to, despite the pitying glances from the
jet set.

They, too, will get old.
I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there
again, some of life is just as well forgotten.
And I eventually remember the important things.
Sure, over the years my heart has been broken.
How can your heart not break when you lose a
loved one, or when a child suffers, or even when
somebody's beloved pet gets hit by a car?
But broken hearts are what give us strength and
understanding and compassion. A heart
never broken is pristine and sterile and will
never know the joy of being imperfect.
I am so blessed to have lived
long enough to have my hair turning gray, and to
have my youthful laughs be forever etched into
deep grooves on my face. So many have
never laughed, and so many have died before
their hair could turn silver.

As you get older, it is easier
to be positive. You care less about what
other people think. I don't question
myself anymore. I've even earned the right
to be wrong.
So, to answer your
question...I like being old. It has set me
free. I like the person I have become.
I am not going to live forever, but while I am
still here, I will not waste time lamenting what
could have been, or worrying about what will be.
And I shall eat dessert every single day.
(If I feel like it)
May our friendship never come
apart especially when it's straight from the
heart!
May you always have a rainbow
of smiles on your face and in your heart forever
and ever!
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Midi playing ~
"Rock Around the Clock"
Source ~
Rose's Music
Used with
permission

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